Wednesday, January 02, 2008


Hope everyone had a wonderful holiday season. Our Christmas was small, but sweet. I shrewdly waited for the last-minute shopping sales and was rewarded with being able to gift everyone nicely and stay within my paltry budget.

New Year's is Mama's FAVORITE holiday. It's a tradition in her family to (try) to eat 12 grapes in the first minute after midnight, saying each month as you insert a new grape. It's not really that hard, but it helps to be prepared. And have seedless grapes. (This was the first year I was successful).

We've made arrangements to drive down and see my father (and that side of the family) in a few weeks. Because H is paranoid about my flying (and because we're broke) we're ging to be driving. We're going to be driving for 16 hours. Between Mama and me, we're going to have to pee every twenty minutes. (We may never get there).

I'm a little stymied about what to post these days. Everything I think about putting up basically boils down to I'M SO SCARED. Which I think is a bit boring. And kind of whiny. Such as, "I got what I wanted, YIKES!" I do want this. I am grateful. But this is new. This is different THis is something that I've failed at before. And I am scared.


Waiting Amy said...

I understand the fear, totally. Don't feel bad that you are concerned, its very normal after all that IFers go through.

Here's to a spectacular new year, one without fear or disappointment -- only JOY!

noswimmers said...

I hope each "grape" is great this year, and 2008 brings you everything you want. :)

Heather said...

Happy New Year!!

Katie said...

I like the grape tradition. I might have to try that for next year.

I know it's scary. I am scared out of my gourd. Constantly. Hopefully, we have nothing to fear but fear itself. . . and our newborns letting us have NO SLEEP.

Have a "grape" New Year!

A said...

As far as the fear goes, you're not alone. I've read a few posts today from women about where you are that are quite scared, too. I wish I had some wonderful words that would soothe everyone's fear, but I don't.

I hope things get easier soon!

Happy New Year!

The Dunn Family said...

It's so normal to be scared! As a community of IFers, we are feel very comfortable talking about cycling and stiming and trying to get pregnant. But it all becomes strange when someone "crosses over" to the pregnancy area. And even more so when you cross over into "parenting". Every single bit of it from conceiving to pregnancy to parenting is hard and scary. And moving from one level, where you are SO comfortable, is so hard, because you have no idea how to handle the next level, because you've never been there before. You have every right to be scared, to be worried, to complain. We are hear to listen and help and support, but never judge!

Happy New Year!

Bea said...

Hope you can get the fear under control. I can very much understand it, but if you're like me it can spiral out of control if not careful. They teach deep breathing techniques for birth, but they really need them for pregnancy!

Have a great new year, anyway.