Wednesday, September 26, 2007

What's Different?

I have to thank my husband.

I keep torturing dear H, asking him "was I like this the last time?" This being my second IVF, you know.

Did I have these JABBING pains last time? Were my mammaries so mighty? Did I have to pee this often?

He'll say yes, or no, and usually follow up with some vivid anecdote. "Don't you remember we were walking on the street in Palerm0 (a neighborhood in Buen0s Aires) and you bent over in pain?"

I, almost always, do not remember. What I remember was getting the positive, being told it was negative, having it double for consistently for a few days... then getting on a plane... then being told by my regular OB-GYN that the pregnancy stopped after a week.

The rest pales.

But I don't want to think about that cycle. I want to think about this cycle. I want to think about WHAT'S DIFFERENT.

Now, I should mention my diet is radically different. (No sugar. No caffeine. Lots of greens). That my vitamin/supplement regime is different (multi-vitamin, folic acid, aspirin, and an assortment of other wacky supplements). And my clinic is different.

But.

The most important thing that's different this cycle is YOU. Yes, YOU. I owe YOU. Anytime you want to come to NYC and hang out, call me. I owe YOU, more than I can ever repay.

I owe YOU for your advice, for your knowledge, for your kind words and just for being here. I OWE YOU BIG TIME.

I owe YOU because I know if I'm successful or not so successful, you'll be there with me. With words of encouragement that I am never quite sure I deserve.

I don't know how the hell I am ever going to pay you back.

6 comments:

My Reality said...

That is hysterical!

Bea said...

Nica, you already paid it forward. Unless Mr's company ever makes good on its promise to send him to NYC to get some things done at the office over there, in which case you owe me a chat over coffee and some tourist tips. But I wouldn't hold my breath on that one.

Also, OMG the toothbrush! Hehe.

Bea

JJ said...

I hope all the things you feel this time are GOOD signs...
We hope to make a trip north again soon-so when we do, Ill let you know so I can treat YOU to coffee (de-caf of course) to celebrate, cause this is gonna work!=)

Kristen said...

That is so sweet to thank your hubby. He definitely sounds like a keeper.

I hope that your symptoms are a sign of what lies ahead for you. Fingers and toes crossed!

Mary Ellen and Steve said...

I hope that your symptoms are a sign of good things to come. Good luck!

Dianne/Flutter said...

Nica, you pay it forward by making me laugh hysterically! You seriously could do comedy.

Good luck.